I am having a hard time overcomming the fear of the consequences of growing again. It's been almost 3 years since I was released from confinement for growing indoors. Regardless of charges being dropped due to an illegal search and seizure, I spent 11 months in county. I paid my dues 10 X's in my opinion.
Since then I have missed the growing. I smoke regularly but being a grower never changes the way I see it. It will always be in my blood. I would move to a place where it is accepted in a second, but that's not an option.
Lately I have been contemplating a outdoor grow on a small scale. I live in a quiet equestrian community with empty lots that are hardly traveled. ......long story short....

I want to grow. But I'm nervouse. I lost my mojo and I want it back.how can I overcome these fears? I am so angry that I have my mind so torn on what to do. I am not a crimanal. I don't deserve to feel like one.

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were you the person who turned 1/2 his house into a grow room (with mother of your child, you and said child living in the rest) and then had LEO @ your door over a warrant?

if so... man, IDK what to say

be safe(r)
be smart(er)
be careful(er)

Yes I am. And thank you for the advice.

If you can't get a medicinal recommendation where you live and have already been tried and possibly convicted before .....hmmmmmm....
Time to look for a new hobby....in my opinion....
Sorry ....maybe not what you wanted to hear....

Yeah, move legal or take up something else. Especially if you got a kid counting on you. Just my .02

My living situation is different than before. It's so fked that I can't even grow one dawn plant.

Jail sucks and Prison can suck even more( if your in Texas,they both suck bout tha same lol)
Anyway,think of your Child, much more important then a Hobby.
I stopped for my Granddaughter and i miss growing terribly, but i would miss my Granddaughter allot more.